Millar accepts loss of his everyday job
By Gordon Edes, Globe Staff | August 22, 2005
ANAHEIM, Calif. -- Red Sox first baseman Kevin Millar, benched again yesterday, acknowledged he has lost his everyday job, but said, ''John Olerud deserves to be playing 100 percent." Olerud, who came off the disabled list last Wednesday with a strained hamstring, has started three of the five games since he was activated, and after a bloop single in four trips yesterday, is batting .429 (6 for 14) since coming off the DL. Millar started the first game of the Angels series, singling in a run, then played again Saturday afternoon -- manager Terry Francona said he didn't want to test Olerud's hamstring in a day game after a night game -- and had another single.
He was on the bench yesterday, and figures to play intermittently going forward, but despite his disappointment he vowed it would not affect his role as team morale booster. ''It can't and it won't," said Millar, who was on the top step of the dugout all game long, offering support. ''I mean, John Olerud deserves to be playing 100 percent. I haven't been able to swing the bat the way I'm capable of, and we are at a point in the season where we have to do whatever gives us the best chance to win. If my job is to come off the bench in the eighth or ninth inning to help this team, then I will. I'll wait my turn and if I get a chance to play, I'll find a way to battle through it.
''It's definitely been a battle offensively. You look at players that are going through it. Steve Finley is going through it in Anaheim. Mike Lowell's been going through it all year [in Florida]. I obviously have not swung the bat the way I'm capable of. Everyone in this locker room has had a slump somewhere. This game tests you, but it's how you handle yourself in adversity."
Millar is just 4 for 30 (.133) in his last eight games, and the drop in his power has been a story all season. Millar has just four home runs, after a career-high 25 in 2003, his first season with the Sox, and 18 last year. Only 25 of his 99 hits have been for extra bases. His struggles on the road have been even more pronounced: only seven of his 47 hits have been for extra bases, with no home runs. He has gone 182 at-bats since his last homer, June 4 in Fenway Park. ''There are days I'm going to be in there," Millar said. ''I might be in right, I might be at first, I might be in left. There will be a matchup where I'll be ready to play and help the club win that night.
''This is not about me. This is not about ego. I think my teammates have been behind me through this whole thing. I think my manager has been behind me in this whole thing, and they still are. ''But right now, John Olerud is too good a player and swinging the bat too well. This is definitely what's best for us right now." Millar confirmed he had spoken with Francona about his change of status. His response?
''No problem," Millar said. ''Do what you've got to do. I'm not going to throw chairs or desks; you've got the wrong guy. Believe me, I've tried to battle through this. I'm not going to quit and I want to play every day, but right now until I produce, do you put John Olerud in there? Damn right."